in the flames we purge pain, merge loss and gain, in rain we wash shame, become sane and insane. in air we vent despair, balancing anger and the need to care. in sand we scour hands. become one with the land
Hi Rob, if it were all free then this would enable me to encourage, within a community with open hearts and minds to explore the boundaries of the Human being, within and without, through conciousness and the physical universe to advance further. Human kind could truly advance magnificently under such circumstances. The trouble is after my awakening i look around and dont see others following, they,re (some) too caught up in negative emotions. How can you see this happening? Peter
what exactly is a negative emotion? if a person is jealous, is that negative? to whom is it negative, and is it possible that by changing the perspective, it can be viewed positively? positive and negative are simply 2 sides of the same coin, flipped into the air to distract you from the real questions. when you awaken to utopia, you will not believe it, because you cannot conceive of anything positive without a negative to contrast it. you will create negatives, so as to define your positives more clearly, and all are merely perspectives.
if you have awoken, you have been dreaming. the people here have a saying that translates roughly: Before you become wise you must chop wood and carry water. After you have become wise, you must still chop wood and carry water. and i think Confucius said something similar.
Advancement will happen regardless of circumstances, and awareness will only ever be as enlightened as we choose it to be. do not look for others to follow. lead, and if they do not follow, you will have lived your life happily
What I meant was getting enough people to believe in themselves and find the truth of their own existence. Most of what leads us down this path of corruption is control over others, but if people took control of their own lives.. People want good.
this is exactly what i mean, people don’t want good, they want nice. they dont want good, they want easy. they certainly don’t want control of their own lives, because that entails being responsible, not just for yourself, but also for everyone else. i used to feel like you do, but then i got introduced to the real world, where people very rarely show any of the positive traits we are hoping to engender in our society. and that makes it all pipe-dreams.
i’m choosing to wake up now. i’m calling a spade a spade, and people, people. we are the sum total of our entire species, and i’m no longer willing to tolerate those who tolerate any kind of possession. you say it’s control of people that corrupts, that’s partially true. the truth is, it’s ownership. your job owns you, your car owns you, your computer owns you, your church owns you, your bank owns you… the people you dont stand up to own you. i’ve had enough of being property. i’m starting to make my difference, and yeah, i will say fuck you to anyone who says i’m wrong, because that’s what i’ve gotten for my efforts: a big “fuck you” and a smiling “we own you”.
sorry if this seems like an attack, that’s not where i was heading with this originally, perhaps you’ve kindled a small ember that was missing a while ago. so i guess thanks, observedintoexistence, you’ve helped me in the strangest way.
as long as my friendlyneighbourhoodpsycho is inspired, how can anything be wrong :)
indeed, it is very much about inspiring people, but i wish there was more doing and less thinking, it’s thinking that’s gotten me so frustrated. i’m feeling it’s time for action, and i may just decide to make it drastic. :)
Hehe. :) Your thoughts are not irrational, not one bit. I wish I could give you more than these simple words. Your intentions are what inspire others to help, and with enough people we can make a difference, for you, for everyone.
*sigh* i’m beginning to think that it is this belief, that with enough people we can make a difference, that keeps us from actually making a difference.
what if, and here’s a far out idea, i simply stop caring about everyone else. what if i make a difference, and say fuck you to anyone who tells me no. it seems to me that that is precisely how those who currently make decisions operate, and well, they’re getting what they want. maybe i should become a political entity, preaching my own gospels and selling it off as an economic commodity. maybe then i can get the “enough people” that i’ve been yearning for.
To make a better place for our children. We must try while we can.
hmmm. and my inner rebel screams, “I don’t have kids. I don’t want kids! There are already too many! Now I have to fix things for other people’s kids? And they’re only going to suffer more, because no matter how hard i try, I can’t fix things!” To which my inner rationalist responds “yet we must try, to give up completely means the bad guys wins by default” and i guess i have to listen to the rationalist. but i also think we have to stop using the children as the reason for doing good. I want a better world, for ME. yes, that is selfish, but if everyone gets to benefit, then… whatever, same difference. thanks for the response though, i guess i’m just venting frustration at this screwed up place we call home.
if i try to make a difference, i’m told i have a superiority complex, if i sit back and do nothing, i’m doing what i hate about the world.
i watch the world fall apart, and even in my own quiet valley, the ignorance about everything is staggering. if i point out ignorance, i’m accused of being a racist, as if ignorance is skin deep. the system has a hold so deeply ingrained in society, that i can’t break it, not even with a single individual. and there are billions that need freeing, even if they don’t see it. but, wait, that makes me a high-handed know-it-all.
no matter how hard i try, there is simply no way to break the viscous cycle, because people would rather destroy everything now, in the lap of false luxury, than stand up and fix things. there is no consideration, and hate outweighs love. fear outweighs love. everything seems to outweigh love, and yet in love we must trust. anything else is blasphemy against the gods of money religion and politics.
i’m tired, and sad and wondering, what is the point?
“By now we should know
How to communicate instead of coming to blows
We’re on a roll
And there ain’t no stopping us now
We’re burning under control
Isn’t it strange how
We’re all burning under the same sun
By now we say it’s a war for peace
It’s the same old game
But do we really want to play?
We could close our eyes it’s still there
We could say it’s us against them
We can try but nobody wins
Gravity has got a hold on us all
We try to put it out
But it’s a growing flame
Using fear as fuel
Burning down our name
And it wont take too long
Cause words are burning same
And who we gonna blame now?”—Jack Johnson (CRYING SHAME)
we continuously mouth our objections and our revolt against the status quo individually, but we feed the status quo collectively. if we realize our individual responsibilities to life, we must not only live up to it as individuals, but remember the collective form of life, and more than anything else it is one for all and all for one.
no single thing, moment or person defines you. you are defined by every thing, moment and person. you can label yourself if you want, but individual labels are worthless, it is only when they are read together that the story makes sense.
dont let the perception of lies become your truth.
when we take things at face value, we accept all inherent lies without question. when we question, we seek not the truth, but a means to seperate truth from the lie. and when we have truth, we must still question, for ours is an emergent univers.e change is the only truths
ah, but the truth is a matter of perception, and that perception is manipulable, which means that truth is manipulable, which means that it’s about choice, which points at free will, unless you are God, then it points to both destiny and free will, but i can’t KNOW i’m God, and so random is the closest i can get to truth. from a logical human standpoint
okay, so there's a third option with the free will/destiny debate... random?
i’ve finally been convinced to accept that the theory that everything is entirely random is in fact a valid possibility. and it is my own reasoning that was used against me… the indignity of it all! (hehehe) this is what i love about being wrong. the room for growth that you didn’t know was there… but i diverge where i should divulge.
by descartes’ reasoning, i think, therefore i am. and the only existence i can prove to myself beyond doubt, is my own. great. could be free will or destiny or random, because i only have my perspective to go with.
later i start to become aware of various writings/teaching/sayings that all basically say everything is a single entity, fantastic! combine that with mr desartes and i become God. simple, if i am God, then destiny is my free will. quite neat really… but then i have to get up and make food and i’m reminded of my humanity and it all falls apart.
if it’s free will and it’s my choice, well that’s all good and dandy, but i dont see an error checking system cross referencing peoples aspirations, hell the closest thing we have is economics and that’s a complete disaster.
if it’s destiny, well then it makes no difference what i choose, what will be will be.
now if it were all random? well, then you can believe in free-will or destiny, and random? will just do as random does, it really doesn’t care about our plans or hopes or dreams, it’s all a big gamble. and to be honest, of all the “Truths” i have heard, this one actually hits the absolute closest to reality.
when life is random there’s a certain amount of fun involved. we get to start playing a douglas adams probability game. it’s a time where insanity is the only sense there is and perspective is all about life.
i dunno so much about hope, it’s always made me feel kinda lazy, like i should be doing something instead of sitting around hoping, kinda like prayer when i got old enough to ask questions.
faith must be nice, that warm blanket of illusions about a bright future, if only we have faith and pray, or hope that others, those who have shown themselves capable of atrocities, will relent. but though there is love in the world, and joy and enough good to balance some of the evil, the evil is definitely there. you can feel it. i know you can. we hide from that fear here, gathering in the darkness to share our growing understanding that it’s wrong. it’s all wrong, this is not how it was meant to be.
it’s not just the money and possessions and greed. it’s not just the jihads and the tribalism. it’s not just religious fanaticism, and nationalism and economic policies. it is everything. we’re doing it ALL wrong. if even one person were doing it right, the difference would be made, but no one does. no one can. we’ve forgotten it all. like whisps of mist at sunrise, they’ve disappeared, and revealed a horrible destructive mess.
i dont remember where i first read it, but the universe has repeated the phrase ”None of us is free untill all of us are free” so many times i sometimes feel it is a prophecy, sometimes a curse. but looking at the state of the world i fear the latter may be the truth.
“Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition! The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous”—V for Vendetta
being off-grid has one major drawback, namely, if you are not part of a cohesive intentional community, you do not have the protection of the system. here in port st john’s, on the wild coast of south africa, in a predominantly rural area, i had hoped that the tranquility could remain forever, but, as the saying goes, evil never rests. since the 1st of December, there has been a decided upswing in violent crime in the area, and though i hate to say it, it is either aimed at affluence, or the local white population, which, oddly enough, are not even remotely the same thing. Robberies at gunpoint, stabbings, shootings, and the attempted rape of my mother have made me more aware than ever of the malignant forces at work in our modern era. we are becoming not only perverted, but apathetic to our own perversion, and the magnitude of our ineptitude is astounding.
but then, where is safe these days? poverty and crime is on the rise everywhere else, i’m no safer in a city than i am right here, so what to do? do i now become militant myself? get a firearm and shoot everything within a hundred yards of me while becoming a social recluse living off spam and posting conspiracy theories on tumblr all day? well, maybe, but not just yet… especially the spam! yech!
being safe is a mindset, and unfortunately, it is one i find unachievable here, it’s so sad, that i must fear a world where all our non-human natural predators are in cages or national parks. we’ve destroyed everything else, so now it’s on to the destruction of the human well-being we’ve spent so many years creating. our wonderful revolutions have brought us a civilization that is killing us. and we stand back, tolerant. tolerant my ass! funny how we can call it tolerance when it’s a multi-billion dollar oil company killing, but when it’s a human being doing it we can call for the death penalty, i believe china executed a record 12 people in one day last year. that was the last time i looked at a newspaper, because of the simple fact that in 96 pages they couldn’t make me smile once and my tears of shame at the species i must call my own flowed freely.
and the worst part? i, like so many others, want a change, need the change, have even come up with plans for change, but i can only do so much, the rest is up to each of us, separately and together. only together can change ever come, can our children ever be safe, and our planet ever begin to heal, until then, all i have are tears. it really is a sad world
when i first met candy, those were like the days of juice,
when things were bountiful. birds filled the sky a great kindness flowed through us
once upon a time there was candy and dan
things were pretty hot that year
all the wax was melting in the trees
he would climb balconies, climb everywhere
do anything for her, her danny boy
thousands of birds, the tiniest birds adorned her hair,
everything was gold
one night the bed caught fire
he was handsome and a very good criminal
who lived on sunlight and chocolate bars
it was the afternoon of extravagant delight
danny the daredevil
candy went missing
the day’s last rays of sunshine cruised like sharks
“I wanna try it your way this time”
you came into my life really fast, and i liked it
we squelched in the mud of our joy
i was wet thighed with surrender
then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted
-this is the business- (this is what we were after)
-with you inside me i simply will never sleep again
(the monster in the pool)
everytime i looked, sometimes i hate you
the vase of flowers beside the bed
i broke you head on the back of the bed
but the baby
he died in the morning
I gave him a name
his name was tom
his heart beat like a voodoo drum
here, where the stars light up the sky with vivid points of history, i have the chance to think, not out, but in. i have had the chance all my life, and i only now see that it was my choice to stay closed to myself, to stop myself from looking too deeply. a choice made in fear, fear that what i would find was a simple empty husk, devoid of meaning, tasked with nothing. a senseless fear, based on the lies told unwittingly by the machine that grinds the souls of life in its religious, political, fiscal maw. when lies are your truth, the world tastes like ashes and fears are all you feel you have… but the stars have shown me who i am, not by lying in a particular alignment, but by existing at all. by bathing me in their splendor, teaching me truth, and silence, non-existent silence, only attainable when you think in, not out. silence, non-existent like the space between the shining points of history and me, and beauty, that silence where clarity is possible, and the picture is so perfect, that i feel no fear, no anger or hatred. only love and joy and light.
when the universe speaks, do we listen?
rarely… and when we do, we misinterpret what was said into the strangest things
but then how do we hear the universe?
it’s nothing esoteric, or remarkably spiritual, but if you simply listen, you will hear it. your universe is speaking to you right now,and now, and now, in fact, the world of sound never ceases.
technically it’s all vibration and can only be defined as sound once it’s been interpreted by nerve centers in the brain, but that just makes it cooler in my opinion, because vibration means energy, a world of it, speaking to you ALL the time.
so it becomes a matter of translation. if you translate all the vibrating going on around you using your ears you get an aural picture of your surrounding universe. the sub-conscious has this on permanent record and if you are translating consciously, you have full and complete access to this in the form of memories.
so not only have you been listening to the universe speak your entire life, but you have the entire monologue on record.
“You are goodness and mercy and compassion and understanding. You are peace and joy and light. You are forgiveness and patience, strength and courage, a helper in time of need, a comforter in time of sorrow, a healer in time of injury, a teacher in times of confusion. You are the deepest wisdom and the highest truth; the greatest peace and the greatest love. You are these things. And in moments of your life you have known yourself as these things.
Choose now to know yourself as these things always”—Neal Donald Walsch (Conversation With God 1)
GOD:“The meaning of life, the reason I made this whole universe, is for you to mature.”
YOU:“You mean mankind? You want us to mature?”
GOD:“No, just you. I made this whole universe for you. With each new life you grow and mature and become a larger and greater intellect.”
YOU:“Just me? What about everyone else?”
GOD:“There is no one else. In this universe, there’s just you and me.”
YOU:“But all the people on earth…”
GOD:“All you. Different incarnations of you.”
YOU:“Wait. I’m everyone!?”
GOD:“Now you’re getting it,”
YOU:“I’m every human being who ever lived?”
GOD:“Or who will ever live, yes.”
YOU:“I’m Abraham Lincoln?”
GOD:“And you’re John Wilkes Booth, too,”
GOD:“And you’re the millions he killed.”
GOD:“And you’re everyone who followed him."
GOD:“Every time you victimized someone, you were victimizing yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was, or will be, experienced by you.”
the hard part is changing your habits and thinking patterns
to fix the major problems(crime, corruption and resource wastage), all we need to do is get rid of money, not replace it with barter, but actually rid ourselves of the concepts of property and ownership.
then we put in place a resource management system, bitcoin’s program is a perfect example of an alternative system that could be engineered. once resources are managed, the need for decision makers is almost eliminated. and without any money as an incentive, who wants to be answerable to 7 billion constituents.
the sudden increase in healthy, productive, happy people around the world will be exponential, now, 7 billion people get to support 7 billion people, not just the working class supporting the elite.
religion reverts to pure spirituality, coz the millions in the swiss banks don’t mean jack. though religious influence of course runs deeper, and educational reform is the only realistic countermeasure. i propose open classrooms, with dedicated internet uplink, coupled with guides, to assist in the students search for information.
finally, and this is the one where i expect the most opposition, we get out of the cities. everyone gets a prefabricated self-sufficient home, and moves into the country, while the cities are converted into vertical farms.
result? a global society, free to persue reflection and creation and exploration, with no boundaries in view and a responsible attitude toward the planet.
but like i said, changing the world is simple, it’s changing yourself that’s hard. before any of this can happen, we have to bring about a change in how we view the world. our view cannot tolerate racism, sexism, or any of the isms. it cannot tolerate wastage and unthinking consumption, and above all, it cannot tolerate stagnation and thoughtless repitition.
straight up or anon, it dont matter to me, you see, i’m writing, and all i’m looking for is the right question, so if any one of my wonder ful followers could see their way clear to ask me, or tell me, anything at all, a bonus would be if someone checked my blog first, for inspiration… but anything will do really…:)
If you think the ‘Theory’ of Evolution is just a ‘maybe’, and there is no proof.
The Story of Jesus of Nazareth was not officially released until the 4th century AD, the Latin Vulgate, compiled by St. Jerome for the Catholic Church.
And Over The Next Century, The Dark Ages set in, while religious wars waged all over what had been the Roman Empire and it’s surrounds.
The only proof that he even existed, was written 400 years after his supposed death.
Therefore, Christianity is simply the ‘Theory’ Of Jesus…