i gave it all
to rise and fall
in possession’s thrall
unseeing

i felt it call
to drop the ball
in deception’s hall
unthinking

but now i see
that part of me
that knows what owning does

i now look out
at believers devout
who are where i once was

the way ahead
is filled with dread
but before i’m dead
i’ll change it

and when i’m done
and my change is begun
i will rest with my heart content